Broken

how can you tell mme i dont care
im dying for you
cant you see me?
God what the hell is wrong with you?
I miss you
and you fucking hate me
why?
give me a reason...
please
I cant stand this anymore
I feel so bad right now
that I really want to kill myself
I never been so serious in my life...
Im all in tears and all I need is you
why dont you just love me ah?
am I such a piece of crap
or are you so wrong in life...
Im still bleeding,
and soon it wont be a part of me
that you could put together again
cuz I'll be so broken
so damn broken.
HGow did I let myself fall so down?
Am I a fucking idiot?
Am I just a stupid teenager who
know nothingabout life?
Maybe... but maybe you are not right
this time
and any other time
maybe Im just sick of you always
steping over me
and hurting me so bad
that i will never get over this
please
Im beging you
love me...
or just pretend it while Im around
please, please
Im on my knees
asking you to be part of my life
and let me be part of yours
just... love me again
no like you used to
or how I want it to be
but how you ment to do
like the most important person
in this worl full of shit for me
like the only one who makes me
feel so weak and desperate
and drives my mind to the darkest places
to the undiclosed sorrow
to my end...

I am so sorry...
I dont love you mom, but I care about you.
And for me that is so depressive
that my life makes no sense thanks to that
I'm the worst crap ever,
I feel so down and I have never loved myself.

Oh God......
Im shivering
now itall goes way to blue
and I feel cold...
so cold and tired
is like, like some kind of peace
but is cold
and now I leave.